Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Volume 1, Issue 41, December 30, 2009: Underage and Unfair

Isn't it stupid that you are only allowed to have fun if your 21 and older? Whenver I'm trying to go out to club or to hang out I always have to check if the place is 18+ or 21+. I'm only 19 and I won't be turing 21 till 2011. Sucks for me. I can never get into the all the hot clubs, bars and lounges. God forbid an artist or someone famous comes to a club in DC, they always make it 21+. I remember a couple of years back they had Bow Bow perform at Love when he was like 20, but Love wanted to be bitches and they turned the event to 21+. WTF? Most of Bow Bow's fans are under 21+.

Seriously? Why are so many clubs 21+ in DC when there are dozens of college students who are 18+? That's why I hate DC. There isn't shit to do around here unless you are rich or over 21. There aren't a lot of good hangout spots if you want to get away from campus. I don't see what the problem is. Wouldn't it make more sense to let more people in so that the club can make money and get the word out there?

Another thing that pisses me off about being under 21 is the US drinking laws. I don't see why Alcohol is so demonized in this country to the point you have to be 21 just to buy, drink, or sell it. I'm in charge of my own body, shouldn't I be able to put what I want in my body? I am responsbile for it. It's my body I can do what ever the hell I want to it.Why should others have the control to say what I should drink, what I should smoke? I think thats why there are so many drug addicts and drunks in the USA because there are so many laws prohibiting it and sanctioing it, when people get a hold of it they go overboard and overdose or lush out.

I still think the the drinking age should be lowered to 18. 18 is the age of consent; I can drive, vote, pay taxes, marry, get a credit card, buy a house or apartment, enlist in the military, but if I drink a beer I can get arrested. The ass-backwardness of America never ceases to amaze me. I see nothing wrong with drinking now and than. I think as long as you do everything in moderation it should be fine.

I'm hoping for weed to be legal as well. The U.S. is stupid for making Marijuana illegal. Do they realize that they can make a killing off legalizing and taxing weed? This could be the thing that can get us out the recession!

Monday, December 28, 2009

Volume 1, Issue 40, December 28, 2009: I'm In Love All Over Again

I found a new love and it's Ankara.

Ankara, formerly reffered to as Dutch Wax, is a plain weave fabric that can be found in West African nations such as Ivory Coast, Nigeria, Ghana, and Sengeal. Ankara is 100% cotton, strong, hydrophillic, and it absorbs moisture quickly and dries fast. Ankara is made out of a screen or wax printing process which gives it a smooth hand and luster. It can be handwashed or machine-washed.





























 





I LOVE IT!!! I'm trying to get my hands on some of that Ankara to make me some nice dresses for the spring and summer.

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Volume 1, Issue 39, December 27, 2009: Some Sunday Morning Inspiration

Here are some videos that contain haute coture from the mother land. The countries represented in the videoes are Morrocco, Nigeria and Ghana.
















Saturday, December 26, 2009

Volume 1, Issue 38, December 26, 2009: Georgetown Fabric Haul





I'm feeling a little bit better today. I got some money for Christmas and I was so excited. Usually, when I get Christmas money I spend it on clothes but this year, I've decided to be more frugal and smart on my spending. Which is good because I'm going to need all of that extra cash to fund all of my upcoming projects and hustling schemes.

Today I went out to vent and shop and I ended up in Georgetown because I heard that there was a fabric store there. The fabrics store is called Exquiste Fabrics and the fabrics were indeed exquiste and painfully expensive. The store was kinda of small but they had extensive collection of fabric that included: imported fabrics from all over the world, couture fabrics from desingers such as Vera Wang, DKNY, Valentino, Gucci, there had a section of fabric that contained fabrics from previous seasons. But it was so expensive.

Imagine you see the most beautiful and softest cotton fabric that is seaform blue and lavender with orange koi fish, when you look at the price, which was $52.90 per yard to want to shank someone. I saw so many dream fabrics there, but many of them were way out of my price range.

Dream Fabric=$52.90 per yard
Budget=$150
Yardage need=3 1/2 yards
$52.90 x 3.5 yards= $185.15?! FML!!!

I didn't even add in the costs for notions. It sucks when your a student on a budget. You want to find the best looking fabric for your garments and projects but it's hard because the nice fabrics are always the most expensive and they break your budget.

Luckily, I found some nice fabric for one of my upcoming projects. The staff was very nice at the store and I walked out only spending $23.32.

Friday, December 25, 2009

Volume 1, Issue 37, December 25, 2009: I Lied To Myself I Do Want A Man

Merry Christmas Everyone! I hope you're having a good one because I'm having a very blue one. Even thought I'm surronded by my family, I still feel pensive and melancholy. I feel so bad that I just used some unnecessary SAT words.

I know I've said before that I don't want a boyfriend at all and I wanted to remain single and just fuck around. I was lying to myself. Deep down all this time I realized that I really want a boyfriend badly. Even though 90% of my past relationships were horrible and many of them traumatizing, there is nothing worse than being single. Being single is like being on a rollercoaster ride, with many ups and downs and eventually I barf at the end of the ride. Basically, I'm trying to enjoy but at the end I'm always unhappy.

Don't get me wrong there are some definate pluses to being a single woman: 

1) Independance- You can go where ever you feel like, spend as much money as you want, its just basically all about you.

2) Girl Time-Having fun times with the girls this includes shopping, clubbing, and checking out the hotties. Its always great to have good friends around when you're feeling like a spinster at 19. Friends are always there when you are feeling like $2, they build you back up and make you feel like a $1,000,000 again.

3) Career/School- You'll get better grades in school, you might actually make the dean's list, you can focus on your career and all the long hours of sewing and getting yelled at from you boss. More money to spend on you.

4) No Strings Attached- You can stare any man up and down, have sex with anyone you please, go on numerous dates.

All of this sounds lovely but I tired to do the whole "I'm A Indepedance Woman Phase" but it just didn't work out for me. I thought I was a Samantha, but I'm a Charolette.

Ever since June of 2008 I've been a single woman. My ex was an abusive douchebag who made me feel like dog feces.  Just imagine someone beating the snot out of you for innocently speaking to your clearly gay friend. Someone having access to your facebook because they don't want you to talk to guys online. Having someone call you a bitch, slut, whore, fat, or the n-word as a term of endearment. Being with him was one of the worst times of my life, it took a while for me to leave him. As soon as the bastard talked about marrying me and having children I told him to fuck off and I never looked back.

 It felt so good to be free, I had started college and the future was bright for me.After maybe a couple months I started to get really lonely.I'm truly a serial monogamous, I'm used to being in one relationship after the next. This is the longest I've been single. I'm always used to having a guy there for me. Unforunately, I go to a university where the boy to girl ratio is every 7 girls to 3 guys, which equal a lot of lonely and horny bitches. Most of the guys at my school fall in 3 main categories: Taken, Gay, or Douche.

Taken-Has a girlfriend either on or off campus. Most likely will be really hot,nice, smart and talented. The good ones are always taken.

Gay: Might as well be considered a girl. There is no use for a woman trying to get with a straight guy.

Douche: Most of the male student body at my school. There are so many sub-categories of douche. The come in many manifestations. They can be basketball players, soccer players, preppy, lacrosse bros, club promoters, overtly religious, athesits, ghetto, the list goes on about the different types of dbags I run into and have fallen for at my school. Douches typically:
1) Want girls for only sex-A lot of the guys use the boy girl ratio as their playground. They basically have a choice of every type of female, black, white, asian, latina, big butt, blonde, big tits, red heads, goth chicks, so why commit to one? They want to tast all the colors of the rainbow.
2) The douche can also be taken and engage in activity number 1.
3) Play mind games with a girl by pretending that they actually like you or care for you and led you on to thinking that you are more than they see you as. They pretend to want a relationship, they say all the right things to get you liking them or loving them, But in the end, they only want to see you commit to the doggystyle position.

See? I can never win. I've tried meeting single men at school. I've tried talking with old guy friends from high school. I even tried meeting guys away from my school but it was just as bad. Same douche,different location and circumstances. Sometimes I feel like I've been cursed to never fall in love with someone or to never find my soulmate. I have to be the most unlucky person when it comes to men. Everytime I'm with a man, he always hurts me. Whether it's emotional or physical, I'm always the one with a broken heart in the end. What is wrong with me? Why can't a man ever love me and all 100% of me? All I've been is myself to these guys and they don't seem to like or love me for who I am. Why it that everytime I'm with a man all they want to do is try to break me apart and scatter around like a 1000 piece puzzle?

I know that I'm only 19 but I'm tired of waiting for that right person to come along when I need them and want them the most which is now.I miss having someone kiss my forehead, put their arms around me while I sleep, I miss hearing him breath and his heart beating. I miss that feeling of being in love and wanting to give everything and all for that special someone. I envy all of those lucky women with men around their arms. All the women who pride themselves and have a title wife, girlfriend, or fiancee. They have it so easy, they don't have to swim through a sea of losers and Dbags just to find someone to hold them, they have that special man on speed-dial, he is always ready and willing to do anything for her whether it's just buying her pads when she is on the rag, taking her to the place where they had their first kiss, reminding how beautiful she is everyday.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Volume 1, Issue 36, December 23, 2009: I Want Vera Bradley

        I always wanted one of those cute Vera Bradely bags. They are kinda preppy but they are cute. They come in a whole specturm of hues and a wide array of tessallations and patterns. I've been trying to find a store that sells them, they are only sold at small boutiques and speciality stores. My best bet is buying offline or just ask around.



















Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Volume 1, Issue 35, December 22, 2009: Oooo Baby Give It To Me Right!!!!

One day I was watching the VH1 Soul channel (or was it MTV Hits?) and I saw this video "Give It To Me Now" by Melanie Fiona and I feel in love with it. I'm posting up the remix verison, because I like it better than the original. Melanie is so beautiful and so underrated. I don't understand why this woman isn't a huge superstar. She not only has the looks and style but she has acutal talent. Her voice is very soulful and sensual. Way better than wack ass Mz. Russian Roulette aka Rhianna the Caribbean disgrace.



Volume 1, Issue 34, December 22, 2009: What I Want To Wear Now


















Friday, December 18, 2009

Volune 1, Issue 33, December 18, 2009: The Song For My Mood

Underneath Your Clothes

This song describes my current mood, and I can't stop blushing. It makes me think about a special man that I really like. I can't stop thinking about him and being with him. I can barely find words to fit my feelings for him, so I have this song it's called Underneath Your Clothes by Shakira.


Monday, December 14, 2009

Volume 1, Issue 32, December 14, 2009: 2010 Better Be My Year To Shine

My Goals For 2010

I think that 2010 will be a great year for me. 2009 was very rough on me finanicially, spirtually, and emotionally. I want to put it all behind me. I have nothing but optimism and hope that next year I will be better, I'll try harder, I'll do things faster, and I'll be stronger.

1) Find a full-time job.

2) Save more money.

3) Get better grades/more scholarships.

4) Find a summer internship in NYC.

5) Become more healthier.

6) Do more sewing projects/ become better at garment construction.

7) Relax more.

8) Always have a Plan A-Z.

9) Improve clubs and organizations at my school.

10) Even when I'm down and out always remember that I can do it.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Volume 1, Issue 31, December 9, 2009: The Rotten Apple

      As you know already, I'm a fashion major and one of the best places to work in fashion is NYC. NYC is my favorite U.S. city. It has everything I like, millions of hot single people, 24 hour public transportation, costal, and lots of things to do. I want to move there after school and work their. But lately I've been hearing a lot bad reviews about the big apple. Like it's very expensive, its hard to survive there, over-crowded, it's dirty, etc.


I still want to move there. I don't really care for that other fashion cities in LA and Miami.


LA=I'm sorry I just find the people there very fake.


Miami=Same as LA, and I wouldn't want hurricanes coming to me all the time.


I find LA and Miami boring. But I like the weather better in those areas than I do in NYC. But the plus side of LA and Miami the houses/apartments are better and less expensive than NYC.


Average NYC Rent for a 1 bedroom apartment=$2,700
Average DC Rent for a 1 bedroom apartment=$1,100
Average LA Rent for a 1 bedroom apartment=$1,700
Average Miami Renet for a 1 bedroom apartment=$800-1,000


Wow that blows. I would be spending most of my money on rent. :(


That's why I'm doing my research before I even move there. I would want to live in the city. I wouldn't want to have to live in Long Island or New Jersey. I prefer Manhattan, than Brooklyn, than the Bronx, than Queens, and than Stanen Island.


Places in Manhattan that I'm considering:


-Washington Heights: This area has the largest population of Dominicans outside of the Dominican Republic. Cool I can catch up with my Spanish and get a nice and cheap place.


-Harlem: One of America's oldest and most famous Black neighborhoods. Home to the Apollo Theater, 106 & Park, and the Harlem Globetroteers. 


-Hamilton Heights-Close to Columbia






Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Volume 1, Issue 30, December 8, 2009: What I Want Now


Pleat Waist Sweater Dress-$27.80 Forever 21




Double Breasted Symbol Coat-$47.80



Diamond Web Tights-$5.80




Military Style Boot-$32.80

Volume 1, Issue 29, December 8, 2009: Since When Did Music Have A Race?

I don't think there is a genre of music I hate. If you look at all my Ipods, music lists, and Youtube playlists I have a bit of everything. Indian music? Check. Japanese music? Check. Metal? Check. Hip-hop? Check. If my ears like it and my souls feels it, its good music to me. I don't understand why people freak out or they are surprised when me a Black person is into other types of music besides Rap and R&B. For example, a friend of a friend was shocked when I was listening to a rock song. 



Girl: "Oh my god, you listen to this?"
Me: " Yeah"
Girl: "I thought you only liked rap music."
Me: "No, acutally rap music is probably my least favorite. I don't listen to it that much."
Girl: "Wow, I would never expect that from you."


Another instance of this, I was at home playing one of my favorite songs "Headstrong" by Trapt.


My Brother: "What are you listening to?"
Me: "Headstrong by Trapt."
My Brother: "You listen to that cracker music. You need to hang around Black people and play some black people music. You're so White sometimes"
Me: "Do you realize that Black people invented Rock & Roll? I prefer to hang around a diverse group of people and play whatever music I feel like." 
My Brother: HE GOT PWNED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hah ha hah haha


Since when did the color of your skin determines what type of music that you listen to? I mean is there some law that prohibits Black people from listening to other types of music? No one ever judges White people for what they listen to. It's always a problem when you are Black and different. Even in the music industry. You barely see any Black rocker, punks, or goths in music. You either have to be a rapper(a bad one at that and only talk about stereotypical shit) or a R&B artist.I'm just tired of people always trying to put Black people in a box. No we don't all live in the ghetto or on welfare. No we don't always have children out of wedlock. No we don't always listen to Rap and R&B.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Volume 1, Issue 28, December 7, 2009: Great Theme Song For Abstinence

Get your mouth away (From my dick)



This will make a great theme for Abstinence-Only Education Programs.


Saturday, December 5, 2009

Volume 1, Issue 27, December 5, 2009: When Video Hoes Try To Rap

RIP Rap Music 1970s-2009
Observe the Ethiopian embarrassment Angel "Melaku" Love Lola trying to rap. 

Friday, December 4, 2009

Volume 1, Issue 26, December 4, 2009: I Want These Right Now








Volume 1, Issue 25, December 4, 2009: Give Me A Christian Side Hug



WWJD? Side hug you! I discovered this hilarious video today and I couldn’t keep a straight face through the whole thing. Apparently, hugging someone from the front is inappropriate now. This Christian youth group has found an alternative to these normal “sinful” hugs, “The Christian Side-Hug also known as the CSH. They are presenting this side hug fad with a hardcore gangsta rap song.  Enjoy.